STOP!! HAMMER TIME!

almost too shameful.

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 07:32:44 GMT

1. I am very good at covering up bruises with temporary tattoos, ask me about my tats someday.
2.I don't really know who I am quite yet, which makes college difficult because I never know if I'm going the right direction.
3. When I was born my hip was turned in and my mom didn't want me to get the corrective surgery. Consequently, one of my legs is longer than the other, causing me horrible scoliosis and back pain. My shoulders are also uneven.
4. Because of my bad posture, I go through shoes faster than anyone I know. I always wear the heels out until the point of nonexistance.
5. I wouldn't be so smart or into knowledge if it wasn't for my grandmother.
6. Feminists kind of freak me out sometimes. I am all about social equity, but nit picking certain subjects to draw attention almost seems like digressing to me at this point. There is a difference between trying to solve social justice and being a bitch.
7. Saying that, I am all for female rights, and will kick the ass of anyone who doesn't believe me.
8. I am obviously a hypocrite, because I ranted about feminists, and I am trying to pursue a life of nonviolence.
9. All I want is to raise a hedgehog.
10. My siblings are my life. I'm kind of the yang to their yin, meaning i'm often way more cynical. I feel bad for dylan, he gets the brunt of it. But I love my sibs more than anything.
11. The kids I'm with right now are schwasted, and ordering calzones. I like them.
12. I hate the idea of posting shit about yourself of fb. It's the epitomy of the kids that still do myspace quizzes. "Live Life"
13. I love love love Josie and the Pussycats, Wall-e, Harold & Maude, Fox & the Hound, Zoolander, Changling, Chicago, Aristocats & Everything is Illuminated. Don't ask why my taste is so weird. I like things that make me happy.
14. I guess I've made out with a lot of boys, but a lot of that was when I was younger and cute. Guys like small cute girls, rule of thumb.
15. I've hooked up with too many people I'm close to. I don't suggest it.
16. I get stressed out really fast, and hate large groups of people. It's hard because I always have twenty kids at my house. I'd much rather be at your house.
17. I am irritated with a lot of the girls that I went to highschool with. There are too many girls that take pride in being "liberal" or "a hippy" or "a stoner" or "the first freshman ever to be blah blaht of blah blah blah" There were also a lot of power hungry girls that liked to do shit, but never had the stamina to lead a group. It's lame. You have totally lost sight of the meaning of success. I'd like to take these children on a pilgrimage to what's really important.
18. I've had to go to five of my friend's funerals. They were all under the age of twentyfive.
19. I used to be a ballerina. I kicked ass.
20. I am always sick. My immune system is shot from losing my Killer-T White Blood cells in 6th grade,
21. Devin & Rebe understand me better than anyone.
22. I hate rebels without causes. Yes, I'm talking about you. (no, not you)
23. I'm going to Costa Rica this summer and I'm terrified. It's good to push myself out of my comfort zone though.
24. I'm trying to change myself. I'm doing yoga, I'm doing nonviolence. I'm gardening. But let's be honest, I' have no clue what the fuck I'm doing.
25. I love freestyle rapping. I will only do it if I'm drunk when I don't know you though.
26. Feb 15 2006. I died that day. I also died in december a decade back. Go find my body.

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 04:42:16 GMT

Organized Religion.
Backbone of what I looked up to in childhood. Meter of judgement. I don't pry on one's religion, but i watch how people disregard christianity. I watch while people stick up their noses at a churches.
I notice.
Am I religious? Yes. Christian? Almost. Do I believe in organized religion? nah.
But I watch, and I'm disgusted at people's responses to it. The grotesque believer and the child with the ohm symbol who won't step foot in a chapel. You're both going about this season the wrong way.

15.

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 03:54:14 GMT

1. I think you're pathetic. I think you're a rebel without a cause that needs to get off the high horse and realize that hating people does not put you above them.

2. Maybe we really are just too similar. I regret that things got this bad, but we both needed to learn. We're awful people.

3. It didn't have to be like this. I don't know how you were able to let go so easily. Now I don't know who you are.

4. No one has been worse to me than you, but the sick thing is that I know i'd take you back in a heartbeat.

5. if soul mates reflect your inner self, maybe real soul mates are too painful to really live with. i'd like to sort things back to chaos again.

6. If i had met you later in the game we probably wouldn't have been friends.

7. I wish things had been easier for us. I loved you so much, but I knew you'd never care about me the same way. I'd still give you the world, ps.

8. Giving you up was one of the worst mistakes I ever made, but it was inevitable.

9. I lied to you when I said I got help. And truth be told I never meant to hurt you. I just didn't know how to deal with that one night.

10. It's always going to come back to george and phinneas, I'm insanely jealous of you.

11. Secretly, my jokes are serious.

12. I always have dreams about you and I wake up crying. I couldn't live without you ever. I'm sorry if i ever made you feel differently.

13. You don't have to hide out like this. It's okay to live a little. you deserve it.

14. I don't think anyonelse sees what a monster you are.

15. I really think we could make it. But you'll probably never believe me.

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 03:57:48 GMT

I can explain this, but it would break
the glass cover on your heart,
and there's no fixing that.
Rumi

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 03:32:24 GMT

omnivalent, omnibenevolent.
the mistake is to assume
my wings were clipped, a self medication that taught me to plant my feet firmly and not blow where the wind often whispered.
But now i soar and grasshoppers chirp, a cacophony more beautiful than any jazz i've ever heard.
this breathes, flow is unecessary.
does this mean it's all better? nah. it means that something is unplaced
i feel all the more ignorant.
a pearl of wisdom.

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 21:21:24 GMT

secretly, i regret the severed ties.
all but a few.
and those few burn deep.

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 17:29:11 GMT

congratulations, you can write cryptic
you know how to tie a knot in a heart so you don't slip out
well fuck you
because i have help, i have the scissors
all of you who ever considered yourself above the rest for making your own tshirts or listening to andrew byrd
you were just as miserable and ignorant as the rest of us

Fri, 02 May 2008 02:00:58 GMT

mickey
mickey's girl, that's what you are.
now you don't know what real men are like, so i'm gonna show you.
steve's gonna show you.

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 03:36:12 GMT

the truth is, it hurt a lot.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 23:53:47 GMT

there's nothing worse than insignificant words
there's nothing worse than insignificant words

spring sprung sprang

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 00:51:37 GMT

the more involved i get
involved i get
i do regret

here comes the big one.

minoutar is a myth

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 20:51:54 GMT

some people know how to hold me
and others know how to hold me, really.

i can feel my brain shifting over once more in these walls, new change is coming
and i like it.

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 02:29:48 GMT

you'll never ever get it in a million years.
fashionable pride no longer makes house calls.
don't hold you head up so high.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 00:17:43 GMT

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Tue, 26 Feb 2008 22:12:38 GMT

this was the most delightful spam I've ever received!

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 19:45:31 GMT

I need help

our work is never over

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 03:00:35 GMT

on your mark ,get set, shit son
i guess you lost the race when the bottle in your pocket got to heavy
get ready
for the next one
i'm not sleeping at nights
just exchanging babies
hi baby
fine baby
oh baby
my baby was born with a silver spoon in his mouth and a pistol in his hand
yours with credentials
ours with rotted wood
theirs with a flame that we don't quite understand

jhlkh

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 01:23:18 GMT

lose a friend to strengthen the better?
lose the best to carry on the false?
I feel like I'm going crazy.
in two weeks i'll admit everything.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 22:54:06 GMT

what a terrible day.
I'm going to miss him so much.
on a silver side, the kindness of strangers warmed me today.

come to my photo show.

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 02:02:48 GMT

my sister found christmas cards i meant to send out when i was in 7th grade.
who got letters?
tom
mar
katt
rebe
austin
rachel
dubee
cheryl
rebe
brittany
maria
morgan
sarah
alisabeth
bucci
brad
laura

those were the days..

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 05:05:25 GMT

yeah, yeah.
hey there.
yeah, it's been too long.
yeah. i fucked up
again.
but in my defense I'm no hero
and you're no saint
but i'm not going to stand up to you
because frankly
i don't know where we stand.

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 03:28:01 GMT

i'm starting my own notebook.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 02:20:59 GMT

it's still okay to crack now and then, to give up
i watch you like a fly on the wall, your worst critic and your biggest fan.
watching as the night creeps over you sleep and into your secret thoughts
the ones i am no longer able to cradle in my hands and swoon over
give up give in give up give in
the true story is coming out soon
the whole story, no disclaimers attatched
the one i haven't even heard yet

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 04:41:15 GMT

half stitches and blue eyes
no surprise you failed
stories aren't your sport
they're not mine either
none of us are ever going to get what we want in life from another person
and probably never from ourselves
so stop trying so damn hard
I can't sit here and pretend I don't know that already
solitude is different from solitary
it wasn't meant for you
it was meant for me

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 02:04:42 GMT

yega bombs
yega bombs
yega bombs

SKANKS
SKANKS
SKANKS

today i will shoot down dreams, tomorrow a mocking bird.